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Girls , do you agree you dont mean what you say ?
If you ask your bf to leave you alone ,
it is true that you want him to leave you alone ?
If you tell him you're alright ,
is it true that you're alright ?
If you tell him you dont wish to see him ,
is it true that you dont wish to see him ?
If you say you dont want to talk to him ,
is it true that you dont wanna talk to him ?


I found out , i dont really mean what i say .
And i'm seriously being crushed & agonized just because
I DONT MEAN WHAT I SAID . Fuk !
Carry on reading if you're interested to know .
Its about things that happen between me , my bf and my dad .


I asked him to stay , he said he cant .
Well obviously i've to act like i dont care if he stays or not .
And i even ask him to take a cab home .
The first time he asked " I go le uh ?"
I replied " Okay " *unwillingly*
He asked again " I really go off le uh ?"
I replied " Bye " * heart breaking"
And there , he left .


This incident seriously made me flashback about the past .
After my parents divorced , i'll get to see my dad
only on weekends . He'll bring me back home every sunday .
That very night , he sent me home ..
Me: Papa , can you stay abit longer ? I miss you .
Papa: Er , i dont think so , its kinda late .
Me: Please papa , please ? *started crying"
Papa: Sorry , wait for me on friday k ? I bring you out again :)
Me: No , i dont want , please ? Just for awhile ?
Papa: *keep pushing me away* Faster go in la !
Me: Papa , why you cry ? *Hugged him at the same time crying*
Papa: Why you dont listen , i never cry la . You dont cry please ?
Me: You go in with me , i dont cry .
Papa: Okay okay .
So , we both went in .
I sit on the sofa with him , dont wanna bath or sleep .
Just wanna look at him , dont know why .
Than he said : Girl , go bath . Papa wait for you here k ?
Me : No , you liar .
Papa : Really , i will wait for you k?
Me : Really ? Ok , wait for me uh ! Dont lie or i'll hate you .
Papa : Ok ok :)
I went in the bathroom and i heard the door opened .
So i put on my clothes and rushed out .
My dad was nowhere to be seen at the sofa .
I started banging on the wall , and my grandma open the door .
I rushed out , he ran a distance away .
I started chasing and crying : Papa , dont leave me alone , please !
* I seriously cried when typing this *
My boyfriend did this to me last night .
Can you imagine that scene ? The same thing happen AGAIN .
I'm so sad , i felt so handicapped , i cant do anything to stopped my love one .
My dad , brother and him was the only guys i loved so much .
I hope my only brother will never do that to me , god blessed .


I seriously loved you .
You told me you're heart broken , what about me ?
You might think that its just a small matter , to me , you're everything .
I love you Baby , i seriously do .
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But , i'm seriously disappointed . sighhhhhhh !

Sometimes i agree when people says that nothing last forever .
But to me , family and boyfriend are forever :D
Friends ? Nahs , they simply suckssss , mind me .
They need you , they call you , when they dont , fuck it .
Laughs , well you guys simply know obviously who are you .
Maybe you can add one more line in your profile , "I'm selfish :)"
With a smiley face at the back can make you more friendly ?
I'm not asking you to change , please think about it la fuk .
Please understand when i indicate FRIENDS , not my close friends .
Alright , i just wasted my time ranting about some retardssss -.-"

Well , i'm finally back from the chalet :D
First day , celebrated granny's birthday .
Second day , played Black Jack ....
Third day , Black Jack and Mahjong :D Favourite !!
So , i seriously enjoyed and i'm booking this chalet for my birthday .
Heard that only Lester korkor will be able to book at a low price cause he's a pilot .
Came back this morning , shared a cabby with brother .
Laughs ! I was so tired that i slept once i reach Bi's place .
Currently blogging and playing my Red Cliff , i miss it !
Hmmms , i guess we're going out for dinner now .
Well , enjoy the photos :D

Firstly , Happy birthday to my Granny :D
Celebrated her birthday on the Friday night .
Lots of photos to be updated , currently using my aunt's lappy
to briefly update some things that happen .
Last night , couldnt sleep well .
Finally get to shut down my eyes around 7 ?
Than sleep all the way till 12 plus thanks to my little cousin
who came up and wake us up .
Our room was seaview :D So nice lahhhhh ~
Total of five days four night , i stayed over for two nights only .
Last night , sleep in between my brother and my boyfriend !
The two of them seriously squeeze me to hell .
So i wake Bi up and change place with him .
My turn to squeeze him , wahahahahah !
Well , shall update again ? With pictures this time :D
PS: Cheer up ! :D

Me and Bi going out now .
My Granny's birthday and they're having chalet .
Probably gonna stayover ? At Changi .
Well , will be back with pictures ! Stay tune , loves !

Well , today morning Bi came Buddy's house .
Buddy cooked for us and i had his mom's cooking , curry ! :D
Its so delicious , miss my grandma's cooking D:
Think I'm gonna ring her up and ask her to cook curry uhhhs !
So random , i know .. Laughs !


Ring up Ah Cheng and told him we're going over to his Condo for a swim .
But every time we're so lucky to get in without having him
to come down and open the gate for us , lols .


After our swim , i went to the gents with Bi and Buddy -.-"
We had sauna together because the gents was empty :D
Aftermath i went back to the ladies and bath , changed .
We were all hungry , so decided to had mac .
Slacked and saw Shery and some peoplessss , you knowzzzz , kaoxsss !


Fred called and he came down to meet us .
Awhile later my brother called and he came down too .
so we slacked and went home around 1 plus ..
Thanks Fred for the cabby and Bi got a ride home .
Well , goodnight peeps ! Ciaos ! Pictures will be late ..